Prayers Kathy!

Oh my God I feel like that picture sometimes when I think to hard and pick everything apart that crosses my mind!

I like that. Anhow prayers to Kathy who might be starting chemo tomorrow, I am going to be so glad when this shit is over.

I am peeking at my 4th step and answered one question so I guess I can say that I have started it.

I have myself all worked up and my mind keeps on telling me to jump into therapy ~ I'll just see how it goes...I am sick and tired of re-hashing out my life with therapists. First we start at my family of origin and my history is so complicated (adoptions, foster mother, REAL mom) just the whole process (and money) of paying someone to try and get all of my families straight, and which brother did this or that, or which family my faviorite brother belongs in etc. I get myself tired thinking about it.

I should just write a bio and tell them to look it over and let me know if they want to see me as a client/therapist type basis and just skip sitting there trying to go over it and wondering if they are getting this down right ~ then of course I sit there and psycho-analyze the person who is supposed to be psycho-analyzing me, and I usually end up with some sort of unhealthy relationship with the therapist with them latching on to me in some sort of odd way. I can tell right now that I won't waste my time going to anymore therapists after reading the above paragraph.

Onto work related b.s.

I did a proposal today that fucked with my head ~ I was glad to walk out that door at 5:00. At least I got it done. I had some good focus today and managed to sit and get just about everything done that I would have needed to do including making an emergency scone run up to where we were catering at this morning at 6:15 a.m. The phone rang and it was Joanie sounding a bit stressed, turns out the scones weren't loaded in the van so I rolled out of bed and ran to the kitchen grabbed the scones and hauled ass up to Capitol Hill in my pj's. Nice start!!

Transferred my phone (another long story) and hopefully my landline is going to be turned on sooner than I think.

Well I am wrapping this post up and off to read some blogs!